[Thailand]

Soooooo. I am excited. God is totally providing for my trip to Thailand!!!! I only need a few more thousand and it will be good. paid for. provided. just like He said. I am so expectant! You know that feeling when something good is about to happen you can't pinpoint it? Yeah, that's me! So good!

Man, Jesus doesn't stop refining those He loves. But it is a good thing for sure! Refine me as gold. Pure gold. remove the dross.

Also, I really feel a nudge to get out of my comfort zone with my job.. I haven't heard the 'go' yet, but something in my spirit.. those feeling things.. :/ so we shall see.

Tomorrow night is a spaghetti dinner for the trip. courtesy of my mom. And unlike the craft fair in the fall.. it's not about me. us. we can't find a Bible verse, like it and then expect God to be our magic genie and make it all appear. mmmm, yes. ask.seek.knock.expect. But all for the glory of God and not ourselves so we can have an amazing testimony to tell others.

The LORD does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and
on the earth,
in the seas and all their depths.
Proverbs 135:6.

That sure is the beautiful truth.

the Cloud.

Numbers 9:15-23 tells how whenever the Cloud [glory of God] was over the Tabernacle, the Israelites stayed put. But when the Cloud moved so did the Israelites.

Hmmm. Interesting thought isn't it? God was totally in control. He completely led them to where He wanted them. And the catch: the Israelites obeyed. they chose to obey and to walk where God led them!

Man, that is a thing that God is helping me with now :) I just want to be somewhere and to obey.. but how? doors are closing all around me. Where is that open door? He has promised me that He will open it.. but when? when will my Cloud move? Oh, the joy of letting Jesus lead and be in control :)

Another thing that is frustrating is other people and how they ask what I want to do, how I will use my education, etc.. but the thing is I don't know. I don't have the answers.. just the next few steps in fron of me: finish this semester and go to Thailand all summer. period. :) that is where my knowledge ends.

and faith begins. lead me on.