Closed doors, open mind.

This is something I wrote that is a picture of my mind right now.

Send me to the places, Lord,
where the people live in search of more
Yes, God. send me out.

Send me to the place, Oh God,
where the people shudder at the thought
That's me! send me out.

Because. I am here. Because.
I need to go. Because.
I'm yours.

Send me to the hardest place,
where the people shall become changed
For good. send me out.

Send me as your treasured tool,
for that is how I'll be used
For you. Your hands and feet.



A door was closed to a job that I could get in order to pay off some student loans and then to help get me somewhere overseas to do something. Be it as a tentmaker or as a supported missionary, I am open. Even to the location, I am open, though China is in my future.

But a door was closed and MY plans came to a screeching halt. They were MY way of getting overseas.. but don't you know. that God is always up to something bigger and greater. So I read Psalms 4 today and it was a total focuser for me, which reminded me of who is forever in control.

A verse that everyone knows is "Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path..." But notice it: lamp unto my feet.. not a lamp to my eyes so I can see everything.. but a light for my feet so I can walk by faith. I don't always like to walk by faith because who doesn't like to be in control? But Jesus is forever reminding me to let go of control over and over again.. in order so that HE can lead me into HIS amazing plans.

it's all about Him.