It's freeing!

Proverbs 29: 25 -

"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe."

Fear of man seems to grip me a lot. Do I look too young in this, do I look weird? Man, I'm thin..is that ok? People comment a lot on how I look but not much on who I am..why? Thoughts are dumb and just a tool satan uses to speak lies. Because all of the above thoughts are just lies. Many times how I look or how I try to please people is just a result of trying to win their approval and not living to please God and to ultimately fear Him alone.

I normally have long hair or rather aim to have long, beautiful hair that is flawless. But mine is normally wavy, mid-length and ehh. But I really do enjoy ultimately having short hair. It is bouncy, fun and it just works for me. [but I always appear to look even more younger than I already am..so I don't wear it short that much. fear of man. what the heck?!]

So I got it cut short. and I like it. a lot. I find my personality is in it instead of 'trying' to grow it long when I know it will never be like I want it. so it is freeing not trying to please others..even though I am totally bound for the 'are you still in high school' or 'you look like my 13 year old sister' comments. oh well. I am amazingly content with who I am. so I am ok.

Another refreshing thing that I read today was in Psalm 68. [I haven't wanted to go overseas like full time because I was concerned about being lonely, coming home early, burning out, etc...] WELL. The Bible is great and I found a promise to cling to today.

Psalm 68:6 -
God sets the lonely in families, he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.

He SETS [intricately places] the LONELY [umm me?] in families [a group of people]. Is that not delectable, such a feast to dine on. wow. I was happy to read it because it spoke so directly to me. Hey, I might go overseas with muh mann, but if not. there will be a family for God to place me in.. maybe they have a single son? bahahaha oh wait, that is beside the point! But Jesus has plans. amazing plans in store so it was just comforting to read.

It has been a good week and today has been a retreat of rest! I am working tomorrow and the weekend so I gave myself off.. I haven't done much but watch a movie and refocus my gaze on Jesus..but hey. those are the best kind of days.