Crushed in spirit

i am a broken vessel. Lord can you mend my heart? He is taking things precious from me to in turn draw me closer to him. my best friend katie is moving to Florida tomorrow and I am going to miss her so [incredibly] much.

and just other random happenings have brought brokenness..and questions have risen in my heart.. questions that satan wants to taint and make me believe his lies. makes me want to see an issue as gray and not as black and white. but my heart shall not be distorted. only He can strengthen and sustain me..

psalm 34:18:

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

save mine heart. be near to me.

He's faithful to the end
He's faithful to my heart
He's faithful to the end
He will come and marry me
-cory asbury.

Refinement.

Ouch. my, refinement hurts. snipping off the top of a weed is one thing but tearing up the root is another. i asked jesus today to shake me up and to do something new..and He did. He revealed things to me that I thought were healed..yes, they were scabbed over but He wanted to peel it painfully off so it could heal the right way.

refinement is a process that allows the dross to be removed so the perfect gold can shine.

oh to grace, how great a debtor,
daily i'm constrained to thee.
and let thy goodness like a fetter
bind my [wandering] heart to thee.

jesus, i just want to be like [you]

It's freeing!

Proverbs 29: 25 -

"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe."

Fear of man seems to grip me a lot. Do I look too young in this, do I look weird? Man, I'm thin..is that ok? People comment a lot on how I look but not much on who I am..why? Thoughts are dumb and just a tool satan uses to speak lies. Because all of the above thoughts are just lies. Many times how I look or how I try to please people is just a result of trying to win their approval and not living to please God and to ultimately fear Him alone.

I normally have long hair or rather aim to have long, beautiful hair that is flawless. But mine is normally wavy, mid-length and ehh. But I really do enjoy ultimately having short hair. It is bouncy, fun and it just works for me. [but I always appear to look even more younger than I already am..so I don't wear it short that much. fear of man. what the heck?!]

So I got it cut short. and I like it. a lot. I find my personality is in it instead of 'trying' to grow it long when I know it will never be like I want it. so it is freeing not trying to please others..even though I am totally bound for the 'are you still in high school' or 'you look like my 13 year old sister' comments. oh well. I am amazingly content with who I am. so I am ok.

Another refreshing thing that I read today was in Psalm 68. [I haven't wanted to go overseas like full time because I was concerned about being lonely, coming home early, burning out, etc...] WELL. The Bible is great and I found a promise to cling to today.

Psalm 68:6 -
God sets the lonely in families, he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.

He SETS [intricately places] the LONELY [umm me?] in families [a group of people]. Is that not delectable, such a feast to dine on. wow. I was happy to read it because it spoke so directly to me. Hey, I might go overseas with muh mann, but if not. there will be a family for God to place me in.. maybe they have a single son? bahahaha oh wait, that is beside the point! But Jesus has plans. amazing plans in store so it was just comforting to read.

It has been a good week and today has been a retreat of rest! I am working tomorrow and the weekend so I gave myself off.. I haven't done much but watch a movie and refocus my gaze on Jesus..but hey. those are the best kind of days.

The book of Joel!

I have always had a thing about studying the Bible.. I don't want to 'study' it since I have heard that that people can then tend view it as a textbook or a study material instead of God's ultimate and amazing Word.. I don't know. just something I have wrestled with.

But today I wanted to dive deeper into His Word and to uncover His character and WHO He is. Well today I found a facet of character in Joel! I want to study the books that no one preaches on. When was the last time your pastor preached on Obadiah? :) hahah So Joel it is.

And my heart was blown away as I took out my Bible and this 'study the Bible' book. Basically it speaks of God sending locusts to destroy the peoples' crops in order to bring them to true repentance, which is not just rending your garment but rending your heart before God {v. 2:13}. true repentance is also mentioned in 2 Corinth. 7:8-11. so good! So He shall send the locusts, but then He will bless the people so much if they return to Him. He is using utter calamity to gather His children. oh He is jealous for them and will take PITY on them { 2:18}.

So what? Well. I discovered that God used this horrible thing to bring His children unto Him. He didn't punish them just for the heck of it. No, oh He is so purposeful. He uses things that I see as utter bad things to bring His people to Himself. For instance, a week and a half ago, He sent a historical flood to wipe out peoples' homes and basements. But last week I gave out to those very people items and clothes to aide them. and you wouldn't believe how many people wanted a Bible. They realized that God is an all-powerful God who could have destroyed them. He totally could've. But He didn't. why? Because He is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, abounding in [love] {2: 18b} He is a God of mercy who used a horrible thing to display His glory.

He used this 'locust' to get their attention, and in return many people are awakened to who He is.. and that He IS bringing restoration very quickly into them {2:25} Highways and roads are quickly being repaired, homes are being cleaned.

Wow. isn't that great?? He uses the 'locusts' in my life [which aren't huge by any means] to get my attention and to show me Who is REALLY in control. He did that this week by giving me a job offer that is perfect! It is only a few days a week but it is local and it shall hopefully give me money :) I got pink-eye from volunteering but God used that to get me to rest and just chill. I have enjoyed just hanging out this weekend and am pumped to go back out and work. then I shall not be contagious haha.

He is good. His love never fails. read Joel. you will be so happy you did. ask God to give you His eyes and to reveal revelations to your heart. he sure did to me.

Enjoying a time of growth!

Woo- hoo, so like two weeks ago I went to my Bible college and took out a ton of books just on womanhood and contentment and good stuff!! I already read the one book, Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow! And it was amazing! It was ALL about contentment and why we are not content.. and the things that rob us of it. Total write from Philippians where Paul talks about being content in ALL situations. and boy. that has been a toughie for me! But I was so blessed and enriched by it.

Next. I am reading Lady in Waiting. yeah. cheeeesy title! but don't judge a book by its title and I am so glad I didn't!! It goes through 10 different characteristics of women, and how they can be utilizing whatever season they are in to the fullest. It is mainly for singles just letting go of control [cough cough me] so I have been SO convicted in each chapter. I read it, laugh and say yep that is me, repent and keep reading. :) It is amazing the Truth that is found in it and how it leads all back to Scripture. So far I have read about a lady of Reckless Abandonment [my favorite!!], a lady of diligence [so much fruit in it!], and a lady of faith [I loved this one!]. so there are 7 more but these three have really impacted me so far.

A neat story in the first chapter talked of when in the days of Jesus, about when a lady become available for marriage, her family would purchase an alabaster box and fill it with precious ointment. when the eligible suitor came by to ask her hand in marriage, she would break her box at his feet as a symbol of honor. Now, similarly, when Jesus was at the house of Simon, a woman came in, broke the alabaster box and anointed Jesus' head with precious perfume. She found Him worthy of breaking her box for. She found him to be her Heavenly Bridegroom. while others thought it was dumb, Jesus was blessed and said,

"You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.” Luke 7: 45-47. ( Lady in Waiting, p. 3)

Wow. Isn't that beautiful?! the application was what dreams, desires and hopes are in my own alabaster box that I need to break at Jesus' feet? He is worthy of all the honor.

I am really enjoying just reading and growing and waiting for what lies in store for my future. He's got it all covered. I just need to keep releasing control.

Closed doors, open mind.

This is something I wrote that is a picture of my mind right now.

Send me to the places, Lord,
where the people live in search of more
Yes, God. send me out.

Send me to the place, Oh God,
where the people shudder at the thought
That's me! send me out.

Because. I am here. Because.
I need to go. Because.
I'm yours.

Send me to the hardest place,
where the people shall become changed
For good. send me out.

Send me as your treasured tool,
for that is how I'll be used
For you. Your hands and feet.



A door was closed to a job that I could get in order to pay off some student loans and then to help get me somewhere overseas to do something. Be it as a tentmaker or as a supported missionary, I am open. Even to the location, I am open, though China is in my future.

But a door was closed and MY plans came to a screeching halt. They were MY way of getting overseas.. but don't you know. that God is always up to something bigger and greater. So I read Psalms 4 today and it was a total focuser for me, which reminded me of who is forever in control.

A verse that everyone knows is "Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path..." But notice it: lamp unto my feet.. not a lamp to my eyes so I can see everything.. but a light for my feet so I can walk by faith. I don't always like to walk by faith because who doesn't like to be in control? But Jesus is forever reminding me to let go of control over and over again.. in order so that HE can lead me into HIS amazing plans.

it's all about Him.

I am ::home::

After my adventure across the sea to Thailand, I am now home. It was an amazing 8 weeks that changed me in ways I did not expect. We say that "I am going to change the world! I am going to do things amazing for God." But, hmm. God loves it when we are in that place to shake the world but then He also uses our expectant little hearts to display His wonder and glory through us. Everything that was done this summer was 1000000% because He ordained and made it happen! Isn't that comforting to know that He was behind everything, and is still continually and forever at work in our lives?

It is for me. Because then it helps me to know that I don't need to have everything worked out. And there were so many days that I set up appts. to meet with people at the univerisity and they didn't show up. But in the end, guess what? A girl I got SO close to got saved the day before I left and it made me so incredibly excited! We shared the Gospel to her once but she seemed disinterested. I invited her to church though and she came! Jesus got a hold of her life and now the church will follow up!

God was behind it all! We as a team can take no credit for ourselves because if it wasn't for God drawing June to Himself, she would have never decided to believe in Him. One thing I love about the Thai church is that most of the people in Church are sold out for God because the other people are most likely in a Buddhist temple worshiping or they choose not to believe anything at all.

We also saw a guy come to know Jesus at our end-of-the week party! I asked him how he was at church that Sunday and he replied, "I am the best I have ever been!" Jesus got a hold of his heart and he encountered Him! He is already being discipled and is growing in his faith!

There are more cool stories but what encourages me is that my trip did not end on August 5th when I came home. No, God is opening up my eyes to the people around me and most of all.. teaching me a hard lesson of being content here where I am. My heart was made to live overseas and it comes alive when it is there.. but I am also divinely placed back at home for a season of preparation and ministry!

I don't know what my plans are if you were to ask me.. but that is ok! Because most of my plans don't work out anyway haha but His sure do!

So I want to follow those.

Burma and latest happenings!

Hello dear Reader! :)

Gosh, this trip has flown by way TOO fast.. I am not ready to come home in a few weeks for this has been such an amazing blessing just to be here. My heart is being broken for these people and yet, the ministry is still going great.

But yesterday we went to Burma. Let me just say that you can literally and physically feel the oppression as you walk over the border. There was a few glitches getting over but all of us got over there!! Woo hoo haha. There were beggars, huge temples and utter brokenness. I almost just broke down and cried when I stood in front of the huge temple that we prayed over. We have been to other temples but something about this one just broke me inside. They are worshipping an image. Something that is not alive. Man made. NOTHING. and yet, they persist on and on hoping they will have favor and blessing. All in vain.

My heart wrestled with the fact: Jesus IS the Solution to this issue but how will they understand? How will they get it?! This is a part of their culture! To not worship Buddha is a HUGE deal. My heart broke.

I couldn't honestly wait to leave Burma. I couldn't wait to stop feeling nauseated because it was that bad.. people were trying to sell us packets of cigarettes.. or get this: playing cards with Suddam Hussein on it.. really? :) haha it was kind of funny, yet so sad because when they see Americans.. they automatically think money. And because the government is so oppressive, yeah they need money so it makes sense. Also, as a girl.. I felt so vulnerable. Yeah I was in a group, but just being overseas in a foreign country as an American girl made me feel more uncomfortable than just in Thailand.

Seeing the children ask for money was hard, too.. kids in America have so much and just seeing the children beg was so different.

But I am so excited for this week! I believe we are going to an orphanage and doing some other ministries involving teaching so I am excited. This has been a huge blessing just to be here and to learn about Thailand, experience the people.. and meet God in a whole entirely new way!!

I am so grateful for the prayers and support from back home because God is changing this Nation through them!!!!

Until next time.. be blessed.

so beautiful.

Wow, my heart is getting attached to these people Thailand! So strange since I have only been here like a week and a half but these people are SOO relational. and so beautiful, how can one not grow to love their habits and way of life?

Last week we taught many English classes in the local school. It was draining, but each day we developed precious relationships with the children so it was all worth it. the early mornings, long repetitive classes, schedule changes! Tomorrow is our last day there and it is bittersweet! We got so many love letters from them filled with hearts and smiles.

But this week was more spontaneous. Our transportation has been breaking down so that has been tricky. but so adventurous at the same time.

On Tuesday we visited a Buddhist Temple that is a big tourist spot but nonetheless.. very oppressive still. My heart felt so heavy as we walked in and just saw people chanting and bowing to things.. to dead, lifeless objects. Seeing their devotion and commitment to this dead religion just called me to be broken and examine my owns self. We prayed as we walked through but I was happy to get out.. and I am not even unsaved! The feelings I felt were not even a fraction close to what their lives were like, filled with despair and dread..and inward death.

THEN. Oh then. Ok, so there is this unreached people group called the Hmong group and they are basically all over like China, Thailand.. USA I think.. but this family we visited was a sister of our translator who is Christian. And so we drove up more windy roads into this little village. Again, another tourist spot but not many foreigners were there.. We started trekking up the road until we didn't go on the road anymore. A guy led us up this steep mountain path that was pat down only from human feet and chickens. No car could get up. My heart beat as I was like, we are going to a true HILL TRIBE! Wow. Then, this small path led us to a little hut house that was dark inside. Our translator embraced her sister and led us in where a lady and her small husband stood. There was a light but it was still very dim. They had a TV and a radio but still the house was very small. There was a few small rooms, divided by a small sheet. It was amazing. These people are kind of unknown to most of the mainstream world. I mean, they were well clothed with modern clothes and they go to markets.. but they did not seem dependent on modern society. It turns out that we wanted to pray for them in the beginning when we met them but the lady smiled and said no.. we didn't push it. Then, awhile later as we were about to leave we asked if we could pray again. Our wonderful other translator and bold Christian friend was about to pray. But before that, she asked if they knew Jesus. They said no. they basically choose to not follow Jesus but rather cling to spirit and ancestor worship. Welll, the lady shared the Gospel and apparently both the lady and her husband accepted Christ!! They didn't appear different, but maybe it was just seeds sown. And that is ok. God began a work in them that will have impact for sure!

Reaching an unreached group made my day!! Often times, we Christians go to places where there is already a church and many Christians present.. but God still looks at these people in the mountains and desires to call them too by name. Ahhh, so great.

I am called to China for sure, but I am so open right now to what He wants me to do. Whatever country He sends me, by faith I want to obey and go. But wherever that is, I am SOO ENJOYING full time ministry and sowing seeds every day with expectance of a ripe harvest.

He is good.

I am here!

It feels like a dream! I am here in the gorgeous Thailand! Chiang Mai is so beautiful, so much spiritual oppression. but so beautiful.

jet lag was roughh especially since we start our days at 5:45am but now it is over and I am experiencing awesome ministry with my team!

The things I am being stretched in in leadership in teaching classes. I am the MIG leader so I am in charge of like ministry with the other missionaries. so that has been good.

I am happy to be an American but there is just something inside of me that totally loves being in another culture...granted I have only been here less than a week so we shall see at the end of the trip haha.

Refining work has begun! full time ministry is so good. I have missed this so much. When you look and every smile, every relationship can point to Christ. I want to be like that when I go back home.

Gahh. I like this place.

Tomorrow.

tomorrow. is the day. Tomorrow is when my heart is going home to my second home! :) Gahh, I CANNOT wait!! This is what I am born to do.

so good.

Goodbye my beloved friends. Walk in faith this summer and I will update when I can. Be blessed.

soli-deo-gloria.

I am quite excited. I am almost all packed and ready to go.
"prepare me to be your hands and feet."

T - 5 DAYS and counting!

5 DAYS and I will be on a precious plane heading to beloved Garden Valley! Gahh, that place around this time just blesses me a lot. I cannot wait to see friends, train for ministry.. and leave for Thailand!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was the fundraising, prayer and preparation worth it? You bet.

.::Love::. in action.

Gahh I am so blown away right now. Answered prayer is honestly one of my favorite things ever. Correction: answered prayers answered more powerfully than we thought is the best ever. Oh how I want God to answer it the way I want to.. instead of letting go [seeing a trend here ahah] and letting Him answer it the way He wants to.

Anyways, 1 John 3:16-20 is on my heart this second! SOOOO good. so simple. but we add our philosophy and theology to it. but we don't have to.

I have this truly beautiful friend who is pregnant and I have been given a truly practical way to help serve her. She is going to keep the beautiful baby so I took her to a ministry today that helps women who are found pregnant and then helps them! So fantastic. So we went today and my heart is so happy right now because of the Lord. We got there, spoke with a kind lady about my friend's baby and everything. Then, they do free ultrasounds but only for girls with a high-risk of an abortion so they can see the baby and then not abort. But my friend is keeping her baby..no ultrasound then.

BUT GOD. I love those two words. BUT God allowed it to happen that we will go tomorrow to get a free ultrasound because the guy is only doing another ultrasound for a girl tomorrow so he won't mind. HalleLUJAHH! :) Is that not wonderful?

What makes me so mad though honestly is that people [we the Church] condemn and judge people like my friend who knows she messed up, knows she should never have done it. She doesn't need me to come alongside her and tell her even more how she has screwed up.

but she needs help. She needs someone who is going to support her because her family doesn't. the Church doesn't. it just makes me sad because 1 John clearly says to LOVE in actions and in Truth:

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters. ¹⁷ If anyone has material possessions [gas, car] and sees a brother or sister in need [ride somewhere] but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person? ¹⁸ Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.

Gahh conviction floods me!! Honestly, taking my friend to the center today and the ultrasound tomorrow will take my time, car, and gas. But so what? In the light of Eternity, will it even matter? Will it even matter that I took my time? No way. If I see someone hurting but just pray for them [which is good!] but do nothing physical to show them that I care and that I am there for them.. they are still hurting. I get off by saying I prayed.. yet we might be the answer to our own prayer, no, by being that person who we desire to do something.

do something today for that person who no one wants to help, love, be around. yeah, those were the people who Jesus basically ministered to. check out John 4 and 8 for examples!

LOVE is a powerful weapon to combat the forces of the Enemy.

sometimes life blows. there is no silver lining sometimes. it just does.

bahahahahahahahah.

I love how Jesus works. bahah I am so at peace right now, just a joyful mess inside.

Pioneers fell through. closed door. shut opportunity. I am not going with them. He has better plans in store. I don't have a B.A in order to get a work/resident visa over there.

I was a little confused.. I know I was supposed to pursue this opportunity.. did I misunderstand?

But the Lord in His gentleness said, "no. I did not tell you that you would go with them. I simply told you to pursue them. pursue this opportunity in faith. You are walking by faith so you did not know if it would truly work out or not. I am in control."

right, you are so right Father. walking in faith took me to this dead-end but remember. He has something SO much grandeur in mind.

I am but the dead, wilty twig. He is the ever flourishing, live giving vine. [john 15]

I saw some really cool opportunities with YWAM. but you know what? I am going to just wait. Wait until He tells me what to do. It doesn't matter if I have it all in control right now because I don't. and that is ok because I am not in control.

He is.

OH! and I read two out of the three books on my reading list. ANDDD I made a few pairs of cute earrings! I am so pleased. hahah though they totally need to be worked out to get the kinks out.. to be stunningly perfect.

mmm. just like me in the hands of my Perfect Creator.

Earrings!

haha I have this adorably cute fabrica and I think I am going to buy studs to make my own earrings! so excited to go overseas with them haha.

And on my reading list to read before my trip is:

Green Leaf in Drought Time
Living in the Light of Eternity - read it again!
Eternity in Their Hearts

we shall see.

Simmer.

oh wow oh wow oh wow! Thailand happens in less than three weeks! wow. my sister is SOO excited for her trip.. she gets excited but then sometimes it is short lived.. kind of like the comparison between boiling and simmering. she is a boil-person: she gets excited VERY quickly! Me.. I simmer.. I need time to get excited slowly and then I stay warm for a very long time! And do you know what is precious? Jesus knows that. He gives me a lot of time to get ready for stuff. :) He told me in October that He wanted me to go on a trip to Thailand this summer. He didn't tell me a few months ahead of time.. he gave me as much time as possible! Isn't that wonderful?!

He has birthed a huge dream in my heart that He has not relented on: go to China to be a missionary. wow, he told me that when I was just a kid.. and He TRULY has given me time to simmer.. to get ready in all areas.. because then He knows I will stay warm for a very long time and not just be a boiling mess that is like a microwave. hot fast, cold fast.

Ahh so I just finished this book called In the Arena by Isobel Kuhn! SOOO incredible!! It was so convicting, so deep. so King James Version and not The Message! lol it made God glorified. it made God not look like a little angel who just sends blessings to people.. it made Him look fierce, mighty, terrible and beautiful at the same time! And that is the God I can relate with.. sometime people describe God so little of Who He actually is! So this was WONDERFUL!!!

Also, I am quitting my present job soon.. my last day is June 6th, and I AM SO EXCITED!!!! It is a really stressful job so I am very happy. However, when I get back from my trip in August I feel I am really going to be walking by Faith because I don't have a schedule.. my plans don't work haha. but God is already ready! He is geared up.. Me. I have some plans but nothing definite.

- Get a job as a CNA at the local senior center
- Go to Orlando for training in October.
- Raise money for China.

That's it. I don't know if I will get a job right away. I don't know if more fundraising will work out. But oh. it is SUCH a comfort to know that Jesus is already there. He already knows my plans for my future, plans to prosper and not harm me. He has told me to not be anxious about anything so I have no reason to be.

If nothing else this year, He has taught me that He is faithful. He is. He provided all of my money for my trip. He gave me enough money for my exact needs. I don't need to rely on men. I need to rely on Him because it is His money anyways.

Tough lessons but a faithful God! I am so INCREDIBLY looking forward to a ministry-filled summer and reunions with friends!!! [that is a wonderful part too!!!! I get to see my new nephew, HA sisters and brothers and other beautiful people ALL THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!]

Papa, bring it.

[Thailand]

Soooooo. I am excited. God is totally providing for my trip to Thailand!!!! I only need a few more thousand and it will be good. paid for. provided. just like He said. I am so expectant! You know that feeling when something good is about to happen you can't pinpoint it? Yeah, that's me! So good!

Man, Jesus doesn't stop refining those He loves. But it is a good thing for sure! Refine me as gold. Pure gold. remove the dross.

Also, I really feel a nudge to get out of my comfort zone with my job.. I haven't heard the 'go' yet, but something in my spirit.. those feeling things.. :/ so we shall see.

Tomorrow night is a spaghetti dinner for the trip. courtesy of my mom. And unlike the craft fair in the fall.. it's not about me. us. we can't find a Bible verse, like it and then expect God to be our magic genie and make it all appear. mmmm, yes. ask.seek.knock.expect. But all for the glory of God and not ourselves so we can have an amazing testimony to tell others.

The LORD does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and
on the earth,
in the seas and all their depths.
Proverbs 135:6.

That sure is the beautiful truth.

the Cloud.

Numbers 9:15-23 tells how whenever the Cloud [glory of God] was over the Tabernacle, the Israelites stayed put. But when the Cloud moved so did the Israelites.

Hmmm. Interesting thought isn't it? God was totally in control. He completely led them to where He wanted them. And the catch: the Israelites obeyed. they chose to obey and to walk where God led them!

Man, that is a thing that God is helping me with now :) I just want to be somewhere and to obey.. but how? doors are closing all around me. Where is that open door? He has promised me that He will open it.. but when? when will my Cloud move? Oh, the joy of letting Jesus lead and be in control :)

Another thing that is frustrating is other people and how they ask what I want to do, how I will use my education, etc.. but the thing is I don't know. I don't have the answers.. just the next few steps in fron of me: finish this semester and go to Thailand all summer. period. :) that is where my knowledge ends.

and faith begins. lead me on.

Ahhh happenings and lessons learned

Ahh life is so crazy. picture a r0ller coaster ride of emotions and happenings! And it all is so good and so needed. The refining fire is essential to the Believer's life because I know that is how Christ shapes us to look like Himself.

Last semester seemed strained, hard to have joy and just..discouraging! haha but now I can feel the sun [SON] on my face, and the rain clouds are still there.. but worship is coming easier than before. :)

God is faithful. Oh wow, He alone is getting the money in for my adventure to Thailand this June!! I am really really excited for the ministry that we are going to do there!! teaching English, ministering to orphans and Buddhist monks.. being immersed in a new culture.. being gone for most of my summer.. it's a win haha!

And school is actually.. dare I say.. going well.. I am interning at the local elementary school and I am having fun doing it. God has placed on my heart kids and to see them as a ministry.. kids in foreign countries is who I desire to minister to.

Dreams. Yes my heart is still wild with dreams. A wonderful friend of mine said that sometimes dreams need an incubation period where God allows them to fully grow and actually happen. I think that is the season of my life right now! :) school, work, the average and mundane.. but that is still the perfect environment for God to work!

[solideogloria]